And then I dreamt I was something
with dry soft skin, ridged spine, knots under my shoulders,
my brain stumbles as I haul myself out of the water with arms too short.
A second time, while salt burns against my wings, I burst out.
I see, in the sky, sketched in white on blue porcelain
I cry out. My voice warbles.

[first publicly published at my writing blog]


Sine arte/scientia, scientia/ars nihil est.


[larger version at my deviantART]

I know this looks like a 12 year old threw this together in MSPaint but I made something to express my sentiment, not my artistic skills. I made this to remind a friend of mine that her worth is more than that determined by graduate school committees. The left panel represents the theory and knowledge, the right panel represents the journey and destination of discovery. Just as these are complementary in science, the creativity of an artist complements the creativity of a scientist.

–The Lady of Light

Levels of Influence

Levels of Influence

Charles Faulkner’s pyramid depicts five different degrees of influence. In his article he described each level in the following manner.

-Environment. One can influence a person’s environment via ads, propaganda, billboards etc.

-Behavior. One can influence a person’s behavior with laws/rules and enforcement etc.

-Capabilities. One can influence a person’s capabilities with incentives, money and membership etc.

-Values and Beliefs. Influence a person’s values and belief with authority and social pressure etc.

-Identity. One can influence a person by addressing their identity (who a person think or feel who he or she wants to be).

Faulkner described that “Identity” or the ability to appeal/sway or shape identity is the most significant form of influence.

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Boston Bombing Rant

Charge bombardment, ignition, slow formation of flame. Runners sniped by shrapnel in the name of political game. Enforcers in search of scapegoat, a guinea pig to pin the blame. The haunting, aftermath gory, surveillance cannot be tamed.

Hatred as inertia, brainwashing as supplement. We condemn religion as the seed planter and waterer of ill intent. But we never really understood the manner of their afflicted geopolitical content. Boys surname Tsarnaev as moral misrepresent. Chechnya fear of negative repercussion denied relation to these dissents. But logical symphony echoes possibility of other viable consent. Wish things were simpler, tragedy catered with only reasonable lament. But unfortunately, this ruthlessness is only a small portion of the whole wrong segment.

Target unarmed civilians, a tactic, mankind’s revolutionary. In the hope to alter diseased destinies. But what really is achieved with this remedy? Did we murder more of ourselves than just enemies? Political and moral rhetorics spoken throughout centuries. I recommend for communication, ceasefire, intentionally. And discuss how sustainable metamorphosis can come to be.

What my internal monologue looks like when I’m talking

Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact ... holding ... still holding ... ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said 'yeah' again!

Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact … holding … still holding … ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said ‘yeah’ again! / Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact … holding … still holding … ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said ‘yeah’ again!

This is exactly me. Years of practice since high school, gaining leadership positions, and I still can’t converse properly. I try, and I’ll keep trying, but I’ll never be as fluent and articulate as I’d like.

Animals in minimalism styles, the book Zoobiquity

I found a photo album of thousands of animal species, all with blank backgrounds and done “artistically”. It’s really quite beautiful, and it reminds me of the photography book “Creature” by Andrew Zuckerman (yes that’s a lot of blank paper for artistic effect).

I came across this “Zoobiquity” business today. It’s a book co-authored by a cardiologist about the similarities of diseases that afflict humans and non-human animals. We are all so alike, blah that we even get the same diseases, etc. Some interesting things analogies comparisons between emo teen cutting and self-inflicted injuries in animals. The only thing is, being immersed in (and not even close to being a vet yet) animal health has already exposed me to most of the examples and pretty much all of the ideas in this book. There’s nothing NEW. I’ve read plenty of examples of animals seeking psychedelics, and she included the most popular examples of goats eating mushrooms, caribou eating lichen, dogs licking toads, etc. Actually this article in Psychology Today was the most insightful article about psychedelics in animals I’ve ever seen. I expect many pet owners to know firsthand the various cancers their pets can get. Every veterinarian was educated on the assumption of the similarity of the diseases across species (what other conclusion can you come to after learning to treat all species expect one?).

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Veterinarians in a zombie apocalypse

The AVMA published a list of 5 reasons you would want a veterinarian on your team during a zombie apocalypse. All good reasons (avoiding bites? Hah) though not all of them are applicable to your everyday small animal vet. Look, if there’s a zombie apocalypse, my plan is to stick to a hunter with a gun (with a very well stocked supplies and secure shelter).

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