What my internal monologue looks like when I’m talking

Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact ... holding ... still holding ... ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said 'yeah' again!

Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact … holding … still holding … ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said ‘yeah’ again! / Oh right, eye contact. Ok, good, holding the eye contact … holding … still holding … ok, too long! Getting weird! Quick, look thoughtfully into space and nod. Oh, dammit, said ‘yeah’ again!

This is exactly me. Years of practice since high school, gaining leadership positions, and I still can’t converse properly. I try, and I’ll keep trying, but I’ll never be as fluent and articulate as I’d like.

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